Trigger warning: This article contains sensitive information related to allegations of sexual abuse, physical violence, and drug use.
An alleged memoir by Diddy’s later partner Kim Porter has surfaced, bringing to light serious allegations about the rapper after he was arrested on sex trafficking charges on Monday. The tell-all book, titled “Kim’s Lost Words: A Journey to Justice from the Other Side…”, is allegedly made up of diary entries and contains shocking claims about Diddy’s personal life, including accusations of child sexual abuse, infidelity and possession of sex tapes involving young people.
The book was published by Los Angeles producer Chris Todd just days before Combs was indicted and raises further questions about the circumstances of his arrest.
Alleged memoirs by Kim Porter accuse Diddy of sleeping with young boys
Kim Porter, who died in 2018, had four children with Sean “Diddy” Combs. According to research by the Daily Mail, Porter allegedly kept a diary that she saved on a USB stick and gave to friends before her death. Chris Todd later published these diary entries as a book under the pseudonym “Jamal T. Millwood,” which has since become an Amazon bestseller and contains disturbing allegations against Combs, including physical abuse and child sexual abuse.
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In the tell-all, Porter describes how he discovered and copied recordings made by Combs of himself having sex with underage boys he was mentoring. Among them was allegedly a tape of an 18-year-old pop star who later became famous. Todd has provided no evidence to support his claims.
In the book, she claims she discovered videotapes of Sean’s sexual encounters in Sean’s bedroom “vault” and planned to make copies for herself to protect herself from potential negative reactions if she left him. However, she was shocked to see: “The gay parties are one thing, but the young boys, like (two hip-hop stars formerly managed by Diddy) and (the then-18-year-old pop star)?! I never would have known that.”
Diddy allegedly made “sex videos”
The publisher of Kim Porter’s memoir claims he was offered access to the rapper’s alleged sex videos, including one with a teenage pop star. “I got the memoir, 60 pages. I also got a photo and was told if I wanted access to Diddy’s sex videos, I could have that too,” he said, according to the Mail.
He claims that friends of Porter and Combs, who gave him the memoirs, also had copies of the tapes and that there were attempts to sell them to Hollywood documentary producers. “I know the prominent source pretty well. I know how close they were to Kim and Diddy and all the people in the hip-hop community,” he said.
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Kim Porter’s book reveals Diddy’s twisted secrets
The memoir exposes a series of scandals involving Sean “Diddy” Combs, including a 1999 nightclub shooting that he allegedly blamed on rapper Shyne. At the time, both Diddy and his then-girlfriend Jennifer Lopez were arrested but later released without charges, while only Shyne was charged.
The book also delves into alleged orgies that Diddy hosted, which some attendees denied. “He threw parties that were just a fancy name for orgies, and everyone wanted to join in,” the memoir says.
“Not only did we have threesomes, but we also swapped partners,” Kim Porter continued. Diddy’s ex-partner claimed she had an open relationship with the rapper and reported encounters with other celebrities, including a well-known married woman and rapper Tupac Shakur.
“I was able to do things with Sean that I could never have done with a straight man,” the book continues. “I woke up and walked out of the bedroom I was in… and Sean happened to walk out of the bedroom with a successful rapper – and the woman’s husband.”
Sean Combs has “physically abused” Kim Porter on several occasions
The book describes disturbing instances of physical abuse committed by Sean “Diddy” Combs toward Kim Porter. While Combs’ history of violence, including a leaked clip of him physically attacking his ex-partner Cassie Ventura, lends credence to these allegations, the memoir provides concrete accounts of the abuse.
Porter describes several instances of violence, including the first time Combs hit her after she refused to use a strap-on on him. The book also recounts an alleged incident in Porter’s apartment in which Combs violently threw her to the ground and threatened her with a gun, saying, “You’re mine. You have no choice now. I can’t live without you.”
It is important to point out that the authenticity of these claims has not yet been verified. In July, Kim Porter’s close friend Eboni Elektra addressed rumors on Instagram, stating that there was no book in the works, despite claims that Porter was writing one before her death from pneumonia.
